You might never see it.
There’s a way He leads that can bring you through the storm gently, keeping you in awe, wondering how or why. Always trusting but sometimes without understanding or ever seeing the why.
Then, every so often, you’re allowed the glimpse. That full circle, total revelation that grants you access into His plan. It’s blow your mind beautiful, so beyond how you’d pictured it would be, that it makes your heart quicken.
I saw it. Yesterday, in her eyes.
The world slowed as she caught my eye, that deep hazle hue that He created especially for her, paused for a moment. And I saw myself…at that age…and realized in that second, how much He has carried me from then to now.
His arms are huge and His mercy limitless, His grace profuse. He can handle it. [Stalwart comes to mind. Stalwart is an adjective meaning firm, steadfast, uncompromising, strong and valiant. That’s who I want with the plan for my life, my Stalwart Saviour, Jesus.]
I saw me as a 9 year old and the way He was already carrying me then. A father can say I don’t love you enough to see you anymore, but Jesus doesn’t leave it there. He has a plan. He makes it good. Beyond your definition of good, He makes it God good.
I realized that goodness yesterday. It was thick and rich and all encompassing. It hemmed me in before and behind. It protected and it covered.
His goodness was complete.
He provided through many others, namely a mother who loves deeply and acted as His hands and feet, an Oma who showed us the way to loving Him, and a step-dad who became what a father should be.
This hardship doesn’t define me, it displays His glory. He knew it all. He used it for good. Ain’t nothing catching Jesus by surprise. His plan is so grand!
I say full circle, because in my daughters eyes, I see how He carried me to this place. I see the good. How He’s blessed me beyond my wildest dreams. I have a husband who is a godly man, who leads gently and loves thoroughly, and makes me laugh with complete abandon..and he delights in them, a son and 2 daughters who are loved without measure.
I can see it in her eyes, and I’m overwhelmed with gratitude.
He has a plan. And it’s God good.